till forever.
i dislike looking and typing in this tiny box framed by brownish looking boarders. i use to like it though. becos now it reminds me of all my wrong doings. and that i hypothetically claim to be correct by writing it here. so now i shall click on "publish post" one last time:)
i cant undo it, but i can feel differently about it:)
people dont change, feelings does.
i found somewhere better to write in, the one with a blue background.
i bet some of u remember what this is, i did mention it before. longggg ago.
multi-verse means there are an infinite amount of hypothetical universes parallel to ours that contain every single possible set of circumstances.
my thoughts now are pretty messed up. i don't regret any decisions I've made thus i wont have the desire to be in another parallel universe. OK maybe one, what if I'm in dental? HAHA! i bet I'll never get over this issue. but anyway, what will be the outcome? i wont be able to meet saw and kenglai. and I'll prolly have ALOT of meet ups with xf:D haha! but u know, definitely there will be a positive and negative side to each situation.
life for me have been great so far, how about you guys? i miss all of you. honestly i felt the distance or lets say, my negligence towards all of my love ones. i am not making the effort now. one undeniable fact as to where-all-my-time-goes is KL, then the rest of my time, I'm either doing homework or just nuaing at home doing nothing. i learn to spare myself from a busy schedule. not that i hate being busy, partly because my mum needs us more now. nothing feels better than home:) if i hate to come back to an empty house, i believe it's harder for my mum to stay IN an empty house until we're back. hai, lao le.
for the whole study week, I've been to KL friend's hse to study. the 6 of us, formed a study group. well i wouldn't say it's enjoyable, but at least I'm able to calm down and study. besides, they are all my seniors. oh and it's 3 couples. the guys are KL's clique friend, and the gals are their gf. i.am.the.youngest!:D
KL introduced me to his parents and all his friends. i really appreciate the effort. it makes me feel that i really matter although he didn't say it out loud. Bringing me into his world. i love how our conversation flow, he'll never lose track of it, battling each other to see whose thought can get ahead of the other was amazing. and his deep sense of humour, haha. we had a few friend-like conversation which makes me feel 'oh hey, that's cool, you can actually be a pretty good friend' but don't get me wrong, it's cool that when we talk like a friend, he doesn't touch or hold me or say really silly things like 'oh don't worry baby I'll still love u' kinda thing? cos when i need advice, i don't want to know u love me, i need to know what's right, i need to know u're processing with me and not bring me down with reality(like my dad, reality check, cmf!). he's great, he just have all the answers or at least we can compromise to a solution. and then at the end he'll just hug me and say 'it's OK, u have all my support, just do it, I'll catch if u fall'.
G.E.N.I.U.S. i think he've seen enough of i-need-to-fall-hard-in-order-to-learn situation. this is creepy. there's a lot of incident whereby he just watch when i fly but catch me when i fall. i couldn't be more thankful to have such a partner in my life. almost 4 months now, but each time we date it's just like the first. it's magical how this feeling never fades. and every time I'm thinking of all these, he'll open up and tell me the same thing too. magical mutual understanding.
he's kinda my muscle memory now. like once we learn how to cycle, we can never really forget the feeling. the way he forces me to walk behind him using the way he hold my hand, the way our fingers curl, which by the way is super irrtating when he just want to bring me around in circles. haha. confident guy, if he isn't my man today, i'd have admire this guy. he'll never read this anyway, so i can just talk shit behind his back here:D!
saw has been a big part of my life now. basically we share the same thinking. which is cool and retarded all together. Food Opera! long story. she's also another black horse in my class. take it this way, the 2 of us play lik crazy but o'lvl fking heng then come to this course. the rest of them is really hardworking people. we'r just lik hun hun. we always say, 'short cut isn't cheating, it's streetsmart' and 'Die or fly, we fly' HAHA! rubbish alot, but i believe we'll make it to the top someday!
i WANT this to be the single possible set of parallel universe that have this relationship, friendship with saw, fang and all my hoseh mates lasting for my entire life.