sounds sick. but, oh well. now my life is like.. work, farm, work farm workfarm...? meeting weird people, losing contact w my family, trying to stay alive until dunno when. where did all the fun n night life go? heh, who the hell will fucking care, fun don't come for free. effort? c'mon, the one who talk about it the most is sitting here blogging. it's no wonder people will laugh and mock and treat this all like a casual joke. casual? yes, it's so often that it became a casual remark. it's like a wake up call. it's me, i can't take jokes about my gals. it's not funny, it may be something that can tear this whole family apart. doesn't seem so to you? because you don't see this coming to you, but i am. paranoid or whatever, this is something i'm not gonna risk losing. assuming that everyone will think like you and treat it as a casual remark? i don't think so, i don't believe there is no suspicion, not even the very least. i understand we have different views, i'm not asking for an apology, because i know it isn't fair. just stop it, don't bring up how i'm not concerned about my gals or 'how i got her and don't want her'. i hate it when you can spend all the time in your world with them, while i'm being labeled 'bias' for not doing the same. what to do when you meant the world for someone but she's just a friend to you? i need time to sort things out, hs family is my world, i cant tolerate any threats. tsk, i'm such a heartless bitch when it come to protecting my world. i mean it now and down the rest of the road. in retrospect, i'm sorry. this is the explosive topic of mine. i never wanted to pick up a fight or be mad at you. but i guess this is something you should know and respect.
somebody, please just end this holiday fast.