ok.. it's kinda awkward. it's more awkward to say it out, so i rather type it out. pathetic much? i regretted for not listening to baby's advice. i'm sorry for sharing such an ugly side of the fun with you guys. rather then being the usual me(making a scene), i dunno why this time i chose to kept quiet. maybe i felt that i owe him too much, this is just a little price to pay after ruining everything.
at this very instant.. i hope it's just my self obsession diseases.
revenge or reminiscence. i dun know and i dun care. it's disrespect. fine, you are not all to blame. i should have picked up those hints. TRUST. wtf, i trusted. missing me a little too much? all along i'm laughing at others, in fact, i should be laughing at myself. oh, it's so obvious? no, it's mixed signals. sometimes i dunno wth are you thinking. this moment we are bff, then the next we are enemies. you hate me, but kept coming back for more. darn, i'm tired and traumatize. if it's so not over, then who are they, the ladies you had, meant to you? if it's gonna be a revenge, i believe you can come up with something more amazing. maybe you dun meant to scare me, because i'm not suppose to know it at all. urge? or just taking pity of a sick kitten? all the familiar gentle strokes. tell me it's just a joke, not your yearning desire.
I.AM.PARANOID. please tell me i am..