it's not war. it's waaa-aarrr.. it's WA ending with an R. get it? LOL!
anyways,
waaarrr.. so long nv blog alreadysssxxzzxxx. hai. i hav sch, tts why.LOL! i'm suppose to be doing project now. but i dunno how to start. but later got training. which will end at 9? then by the time i came hm, i'll be shag n energyless to work on project, which i nid to hand up tml. die lor-.- BUT, TONIGHT THEN DO. cos got the push to finish:) OH YA.
i have trainings. LOL!!!! netballlllll~~!! it's fun! i'm extremely happy tt they'r willing to giv noobs a chance. chance as in, learning this sport. although i did said i wont continue training if there's not chance in getting into the team. but now, even if i dun get into the team, there's not regrets. cos i enjoy trainings, i enjoy playing with the netballers, plus there's wt n ri in there. i can nv feel so happy in school. cos, during trainings, i found my true self. i can joke and insult, i see familiar faces. for the past 2weeks, b4 cca starts, i'd been dragging myself to school. cos i dun enjoy hanging out w my new classmates. but now, cca is my motivation to attend school. HIAKHIAKHIAK! LOL! and, i'll still train extremely hard to not waste my 3yrs in netball!:D yea, there, u see my goal now? LOL!
i dun hate my class. we spent quality time tgt. lik, hanging out in the lib, kinda. doing project tgt, but end up watching movie. LOL! they'r cute kids. yea, they'r kids to me. cos i thik one yr did make a difference. sometimes, i hang out w J, but sometimes, i practice solitude. then they'll ask, 'eh? why ar u nt w j? i tot u 2 were bestfrens?' LOL! this sentence sounds so awkward. it's lik.. yes, i hang out w J on day one. but tt doesnt mean she's my bff alr right? tt doesnt mean i cant go solo or cant mix w other ppl. so tt's weird. plus cute. LOL! their mindset is younger, i suppose?
i dunno if i'm the onli one feeling this way or wat. cos, it's the kind of sour feeling when i step into the lecture hall looking at 100 strangers. so everytime i'll stand up to look at nash. unfortunately, he's unlikely to be there. there's no commonwealthian in my lecture hall. cos no one entered my course. but of cos, my classmates will be there. but there's a limit to the comfort feeling they can giv me. so.. life goes on.
but after i've netball as my cca, i feel home-ly. LOL! it's tt comfort feeling la. lik, all 1992 born one. all speak the same languge. got difference, got, reali got difference. 1992 ppl v guai lan, super insulting, v straightforward, wont let u in on first day. 1993 ar friendly, almost too friendly. LOL! scared. but, it varies:) it's not hate nor dislike, i't preference.
FANG IS COMING LATER! finally:D OH YA, which leads me to my next point.
i frequently say to my classmates, 'opps sorry, i cant go hm w u guys, cos i gotta meet my frens.' so after way-too-much meeting of frens, they got curious how come sec sch frens can be so close. did i mention tt my class has no N.A students? onli me? ok, then i answered them, cos we spent one more yr tgt compared to u did w ur sec sch frens! it's true. they onli had a clique of 3frens? but i hav a clique of 13, plus ml n xf. and a few more precious ones. they ar suprised how much commitment n effort we had put in. LOOK AT XF, SHE RAN ALL THE WAY TO SP TO FIND ME! *proud face* hahahah! it's the effort. rima n sh, so tired alr still wake up early to LKP. this love will stay. i'm convinced now. our efforts ar scary. by standers can see. they told me how their frens no longer meet, ect. the difference is tt, hoseh spent 4days 3nights tgt. how can we not feel lik a family? it's beyond creepy. cos no one does tt. LOL!
this love will stay. but still, i hope my classmates can give me the famliy feeling too. afterall, we spend super a lot time tgt. i just need another approach to understand them. not the 1992 way. hahaha.
:D training later! LOL! cant stop saying this.
i'm gonna say out loud later.