im a girl so i cant return home late? who the hell set this kind of weak rules? and fyi i have bodyguard everynight. naive. klor. it's not like u dont know how i love learning through the hard way. boring shit. if living life the way u thought i should, my life will be a piece of blank paper or a pile of shit. boring, plain, nothing at all. when i'm on my bed dying, i dont wanna look back at my life and see nothing. nothing significant at all. if everything needs to be planned, calculate the risk, then what's the point of doing it? u'll be too afraid by the end of the day. oh wait, u already are!
i have a life here ok? sorry if im not that kind of whinny scared timid need-fking-lot-of-protection kinda girl. i can take care of myself. physically and emotionally. u are the one who is always affecting my emotions. so i think we need a gap here.
if i kept going out w my peers, i'll not hangout with family anymore? look who's talking. look who's the one who's not at home each time. so what if i stayed, non of u were home. did i stay home? of cos i did. but did u see it? oh no u didnt. so shld we install a camera at home so that u can check on me in ur office? fuck trust. it's gone long ago. u nv did gave me any. cos im too much of a disappointment. seriously u can let go u know? cos.i.dont.need.u.here.anyway:(
im not feeling angry as i should. instead im tired of these nonsense alr. i dont even bother looking at u when u lectured me, let alone talking back. im so tired of all these.. from wad? from when i was 13? from the point tt i know ur lifestyle will never be the kind that i will follow. im always in control, just different from u. so u dont see it.
all these chunks of thoughts just went through my mind. but nvm.. i dont even feel lik expressing my opinion. it'll just be treated as ass excuse anyway.
i'll move out soon. as soon as i can:( i want freedom.